In college I was privileged to have Frank Newfeld as an instructor in the illustration program I was enrolled in at Sheridan College. Frank was a major force for innovation and creativity in the direction that 20th-century book design and illustration took in Canada. For myself, he was one of those key individuals or mentors in one’s life who stretches and challenges you to grow and learn by making you think critically without simply handing you every answer. He would challenge preconceived ideas and expectations by turning them on their heads, many times through his famous abstracted dialogue which in the end, would help lead you to discover your own answers.
An Unusual Comment
Frank’s regular process with each assignment was to sit down with you in his office to discuss the mark given and his reasons for it. Even here he was unconventional giving out one of two marks: satisfactory or unsatisfactory. His reasoning was that an illustration could either be used by a prospective client (satisfactory) or was unusable (hence unsatisfactory). He did occasionally give a satisfactory plus, meaning that it surpassed his expectations but jokingly added that he would still only pay you the same amount as a client. At one such meeting, Frank started off by describing my assignment as a “Glorious Failure”. Which of course was uncomfortably mysterious at first, but Frank always had intent behind what he said. He went on to explain that even though the illustration was “unsatisfactory” it was because I had ventured into areas of unique technique exploration and colour use, that was completely out of my wheelhouse, that merited it as a “Glorious Failure”! Not simply due to my trying something completely new but because he felt that I should continue to develop and hone this new direction and technique. I took his advice and used this new method of working in many of my first professional illustration works.
Failure Only Happens When You Don't Try
It has been many years since that meeting with Frank and while I define the word “failure” only in terms of someone does not attempt to do anything, it taught me an important lesson. Never see a drawing or painting as a failure but always as something you can learn from. The very fact that you took the initiative to draw or paint something should never be seen as a failure but simply as part of the artist's ongoing process from which you can learn. Drawings or paintings that I see as not working (never a failure) are the ones I glean from the most. Going back and analyzing why they didn’t work can give new insights or direction. Sometimes it takes effort but many times the answer is informative or even "glorious".
An Important Lesson for Artist's Block
This type of thinking is especially important when you hit that wall called “artist’s block”. Some artists have a tendency to stop working at this juncture, or wait until “the creativity returns”. I always encourage my students to keep going and keep pushing in. Many times artist's block is your unconscious mind helping you to verbalize a struggle that you are unable to understand as of yet. Therefore the importance to keep pushing in. Once you identify the issue you can then take the necessary steps to deal with it.
Everyone Experiences It
A few years back I was working on a painting for James Gurney's Weeds and Wildflowers Painting Challenge. I had done my preparatory studies and scouted out my chosen subject for the final painting. My easel, gouache paints, brushes and the rest of my materials were loaded into my backpack along with high expectations as I set out to paint a group of wildflowers.
That expectation began to fade somewhat as I was not happy with the initial result, The larger flower didn't seem to fit in, while the area to the left of it was a compositional hole dividing the painting into two. Additionally it was the last day to submit paintings for the challenge, naturally my first response was to forget about entering it. It was my oldest son who encouraged me to listen to my own advice: assess what was not working and fix it. Below was the first version.
After an hour or so of work, the flower and compositional issues were addressed taking it from something that wasn't working to a painting that I was happy with. It was finished in time to be entered and I was quite surprised when it turned out to be the first runner-up in the challenge. You never know. Here was the final version.
Many times what we perceive to be a failure is actually only a few steps away from being a success. Other times it leads us in new directions. Remember failure happens only when you don't try. Every time you choose to push in, regardless of the outcome. it is a success.